The way I see it today, it is nice weather outside. Not the cold of winter but a kind of spring rainy weather that did not chill my bones. Yet the mind is sad. Sad from hurt and sad from circumstances. One would think every step forward would take us to a step forward, yeah I just repeated myself. I need healing and I need to write my book.
Long term therapy will come through counselling and sympathetic words, not harsh rebukes. Oh but you said this would not work........................... . Sad yet true. Sad words from strong and reliable sources. Strong people, never been assaulted or tortured at every step of their lives. Strength in home, family and finances and strength in circumstances.
Yet when it comes to healing, my heart is torn apart at what I see. I had a police officer once, push me around. I had a police officer be rude absolutely and disgustingly rude to me, I had someone make fun of my abuse and my situation and yet I gave them a sympathetic look and took myself on this walk alone. A lonely road. A path that I chose. Yes I chose to leave my abusive ex husband because he used to use the belt on me, rape me in front of my children and call me a whore. Oh yes I had the strength to leave.
But when I came into society where I hoped the people in authority would be sympathetic and caring, I found stuff
I had never imagined before.
It is love that heals. It is caring and sharing that heals and maybe there is a godsend in small mercies like my sister and my counsellor that I survive otherwise harsh words and abusive behaviour can be found anywhere and everywhere.
I am soon to start writing my book and hope one day some publisher helps me tell my story to the world so that I may finally heal. The pain is excruciating.
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Bravo!!!! Miss... And yes sometimes life sucks for many people... and as always it will be one happy ending at the last!!!!
Prayer, Wishes, Friends will heal all..
take care
Keep rocking!!!!
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Hi
You are very courageous! And smart! To walk out of an abusive relationship. Hope you find the healing touch. All the best for your book. Would benefit yourself and many women.
Best wishes for the year ahead.
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Hello,
As others have said here, you are really smart to move away from that relationship. Hope you find the strength and support you need from others. And hope you do find a publisher to print your book. There are many who would benefit from knowing how to walk away.
Your profile was interesting. Have to read your other blogs.Best wishes for a happier year!
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Smarty,
You are right, it is love that heals.
You forget about the past and move FW with determination. You have the strngth and you can do it.
All the very best with the book you are planning to write.
Happy Blogging.
Indu
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hello! first of all, I think you should change your screen name from "not smart" to "smart"!. I applaud you because you had the strength to leave such a situation. I applaud you, because you are trying to rebuild your life after what happened to you. There will be all kinds of people in this world - some who sympathize, some who don't. It doesn't matter. They didn't go through what you did!! So how does it matter what they think? Have you heard the song "walk a mile in my shoe" or something like that? Unless they walk a mile in your shoe, they don't know what you went through! So let them be. You do what you have to do to get your life back on track. May peace and happiness come to you. Soon. Just like spring and summer follow a cold winter!
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Hello.
I appreciate your little notes to me. You have no idea. It brings such great
cheer into my life. I do not drink coffee. I stopped a few years ago. It
used to give me acidity. Yes it is cold and it is winter. Have to just manage
to get through.
Take care too.
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Pray
let us pray
that healing touch comes to you
mean while
cheer up
with a cup of hot coffee
it is so cold
take care
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